| I doubt that a lot of peeps will find this page. If so congratz! You've found my (not so) secret blog! This'll serve as my nonsensical writing into the void. dates are dd.mm.yyy. |
20.12.2024 uwu hewwo UwU been working on this site a lot more recently, lol. added a bit of a pokemon themed page on here, it's kind of hidden but if u look around u'd find it... eventually X3 irl work update? well, a department i wanted to work at needed someone to help them from last jan, and somehow I got hired there?! it was only for until aug, but somehow I got to stay there until the end of oct. but now I'm at another department, overseeing xmas stuff. well it was either this or go back to selling kitchen full time... I honestly don't wanna work in sales anymore, or in this company at all. actually, I wanted to go back to school after xmas and study electricity, but alas, I was too old for the school T_T maybe, if I'm still into wanting to learn and become and electric technician, maybe I'll reapply for next autumn. but, idno, I just want a well paying job that's not making me feel like I'm wasting time and energy on boring stuff. but the only way of getting a job in the field I originally wanted to go into (digital media and art and cgi, basically something in the digital creative field) is top network like crazy, and it's kind of hard when u'r autuistic and have a social battery of the size of a tiny peanut powering a whole electric truck. aaaand I realllly don't like it when ppl are like 'buh u can totez train it 2 b bigger tha it iz uwu owo uwu' ... like stfu! also I've been dealing with some dental problems (2 root canals since september! WOWIE!!) and just HAD to get sick ( the flu?) at the SAME TIME as the second root canal, which happened a day AFTER the former root canal was finished :/ man, I rly hope this year will bring me something good, plz |
1.9.2023. I fucking hate my job. I hate talking to people for 8 hours and then be so fucking tired I can barely function after I get home. I want a job where I can just not talk, do my thing, preferably creative stuff on a computer. Any wayyzzz.... got isnpired to work on my website, and honestly, I just want this to be the kind of a site where you click a link, there's something there, and there are more links which leads you down a rabbithole, and before you know it, you've spent at least an hour just looking at a crusty website. Some websites on neo are veeerryyy colorful, which should be an inspiration for me, they can get rather eye-straining for me. btw, gor diagnosed with autism like, 2 years ago, which explains why I don't like this job much anymore. the store is just too loud and overwhelming. Managed to get courage to message a higher up to ask if there's a chance I could get into the department(s) I'd rather work at (in case I don't get a job more relevant to my interests |
11.2.2023. holy hell. I *actually* forgot I was working on a website *o* status updates: got diagnosed as autistic, which does explain a lot abt myself o.o quit the factory work, and moved departments in retail work decided to revamp this site and to approach it not as an art portfolio but as my lil personal corner on teh interwebz :3 and just let it look like it's from the late 90s and early 2000s. my website making skills is from 2005 anyway... |
15.2.2021. woah. I almost forgot I was working on a website :o anyways, am working 2 jobs now, retail/customer service (started in 2019) and factory work (started last year), the latter I do not like because it's soooo boring :P busy busy! I also started therapy last month. therapist suspects I have ocd. and I've been trying to not have ocd like thoughts and basically just denied it through my life, but, at least it's being addressed now. |
6.7.2020. henlo. |